rag man

The spittle of your mouth

Breathes in my ears….and the stench

Of your tongue gags my mind

The destruction of your words

Rips out my swollen heart

As the air screeches from my lips

My eyes bulge and my jaw breaks

My appetite and desire to know who you are

Makes me want to starve and eat my own insides

So I can remind myself what its like to be whole

Your fucking gluttony of life and your riddled body

With its seeping slinking feet

Makes me want to knock you down

Facedown into your disease

And then you just might realize what it means

To be a man….repaying your debt

 wallowing in your filth

And the rags you left behind.

 

In Love With You

Im in love with you inside this semblence of a dream

As I love you I find myself alone, beating around in this home

That we built together, to withstand any sort of weather…

When I am alone with myself in the room with no view

I long to preview the scenes we made, so far away in the

Receding days…

I’m sure I will always be in love with you…

Under the bed there are many books that I read,

alone without you.

In the closet on the empty hangers, shapes remain to fill this lonely

Home.

I remember the day I woke, and the words you spoke.

I saw them coming but chose to ignore pacing back and forth

Upon the floor…

you asked me to sit and listen

My brow began to glisten, my pulse to quicken

Quietly your words were telling me that your heart was broke

The vows that you spoke hold no hope, the binding we wore

Was easily torn in two, as I must leave without you.

I will always love you dear, but today I fear that the end is near.

Shivering and cold I longed for her to hold

To take my hand and continue to travel this land

Now I am a solitary man, wandering with nary a plan

Hiding the pain inside I will no longer cry

Even today as I wonder why, this life will continue to

Pass me by.

As the last time we lied together, sleep I could not meet

Dreams never impeded my mind, as I lie still in our bed

I turn my head to see where my life has led

As you rest, my hand longs to caress you whole

And never wanting to let you leave, I was led to believe

That this was our life to lead.

When I see you today my heart takes a leap, and then I

Remember that we no longer sleep together.

As I travel deep within this stormy weather.

 
 

 
 

Cocked

This is the holy gun
Sinking right into
Flesh
Your core pierced

You choose no
Choice

Pieces of your heart
Lie on the ground

Forging into soil
Squirming slowly
Down into oil

Swimming in a pool
Of silt
A spill of night
Is all that exists

Collide into
Barren rock
You cock the barrel
Feel the recoil

And shoot high
Into the sky
Where upon a cloud
You lie

Drifting and fleeting
Coming and going
Thundering in silence
Lashing in a flash

Words scream
And roll around
Falling to the ground

Have you forsaken
The life you have
Taken
Or do you expect
The best

And fuck the rest.

Blue Glue

 

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 0

 

Something happening around here

As the lights explode

You grasp for something to hold

As you hide in the corner

Finding yourself out in the garden

I am left spewed out and about

Sowing seeds of discontent

 

Loudly I protest

And lament

My desires are being denied

And dangling around my knees

 

All my thoughts polluted

My mind is deluded

Sucking the energy wares

As I duck from your angry

Stare

 

Under the table I am found

With not a morsel of love around

Searching for crumbs

As I lay completely undone

Unraveled tattered and torn

Walked upon like the carpet worn

 

I wish I didn’t wake up this morning

And that I never went to bed

Even if my eyes bleed red

And my smile is cracked

Falling back again

With the sun burning into my eyes

With a broken heart goodbye

I have forgotten how to cry

While my insides churn

Trying to hold my life together

Like some kind of blue glue

 

I thought that I was going to be

A part of you

Somethings are too easy to undo

Even as you are wrapped tight

Like a drum

Waiting to unfold

As the darkness chills my bones

I search for the path of least resistance

And am met with self persistence

Sweating inside this skin

Trying so hard to win

All of your affection

I am left with dejection

 

The fault line is mine

As I bellowed about

Inside my memory

My fond deceiever

Turns my thoughts into pain

They wouldn’t have it any other way

sap sealed

I wish I could taste the supreme elixir
That could overcome sovereignty of
Death.
What would it taste like?
Would it sit in your mouth
like an inexhaustible morsel
that feeds the poor in the world,
or pucker your lips sour like a
supreme vile medicine
that can quell disease?
Or seal your mouth shut with
the sap of the tree
that shelters all who wander
on the path of repeated
existence?
Fueling you to the edge of
freedom from our
unhappy states of birth.
Is it the spit in your mouth
from the dawning of the moon
of the mind that can dispel
the torment of disturbing
conceptions?
Or will it be like the fire of the great sun that finally
burns away the misty ignorance of the world?
I wonder who could mix it together?
Winter and autumn are like the death of
the year
I think I will just sit here and wait for the final
meal and drop to my knees to sip from their
essence and then tumble through the abyss
to pray for the ignorance of bliss
to pass upon my lips

author note..i just found this and cant even remember writing it…i have so many that i have written….wild

Clutch Me

clutch me
in between your legs
grip me like a lonesome man
otherwise i might just fall down

Sit on me again
No one will fit
Or damage me like you

Wear my hat like a crown
As I look down
And see how you fit

Gasping air
Twisting hair

Clutch me between
Your hand
Grasp me like a lonesome man

Scream what you will
I will take away your
Will
Desire seeps on my lips
As I spread your mind

Wide open as a show
Players in tow
Two in line
Battered in time

don’t let this go
I wont come again
If you crawl away
On your hands and knees

Just beg me please
Do it again
All over my lips

Seal me with bliss
don’t miss this kiss

It might be the last
Time entwined.

Distracted Eyes

Muddled thoughts

And distracted eyes

Lead me into a state

Of demise

Sitting around listening

To stares your energy

Has very low wares…

I began this day with

A leap into these shoes

All the while with no wonder

What to do…

Then I sat and thought

And thought

And I begin to say to myself

It doesn’t matter if you cant

Hear through all the clatter

It doesn’t matter if you cant

See through the mist

The only thing that surrounds

Is this love I have found

Which I can’t seem to find

Around….

Walking in circles and spinning

To look behind

How much time will I waste

With a smell or a taste

That never touched these lips?

How can I miss what I have never held?

How can you long for something

So far away and just sit and wait for the day

You come my way?

The answer I found is hope…

A fine rope a sliver of a thread

Might allow you to follow

The path as you learn to cope

With this idea…of hope.

A taste, until tomorrow

I stand in the doorway

And catch a glimpse

Of you, under the sheets

Where our bodies will

Soon meet

 

Your hair shines

Splayed on your pillow

Hues of brown and reds

Send a peaceful aura

Into my mind

A smile lingers

On my lips

Impatient

To taste you

As you intoxicate me

With a glance my way

With sleepy eyes

That smile

 

I am pleased that

All the miles I have

Traveled lie behind

With a few steps

I sit by your side

 

You sigh as my hand

Caresses your thigh

My hands tremble

Like a soft massage

On your skin

 

Your skin is so alive

As you slowly writhe

Under my hand

Between the sheets

I  softly linger

with quiet fingers

exploring and seeing

with my hands

walking into

exquisite lands

 

I lean into your neck

And place my mark

The scent of your hair

Reminds me this is your

Lair

 

I am here to please

And to make you mine

Our bodies easily grind

And melt into one

This is how our night

Has begun

 

This is how I easily

Come undone.

 

I decry

I’m sorry if my time has been short….

And that I get carried away

All through my days

I carry you in my thoughts

And to think and hear that

You feel like I’m far away

I wish you knew that you

Are tucked away into my mind

And with me all the time

 

I have said before that I need you

Like I need to breathe

If I was able to express

How much I adore you

In these lines

Then you might just be mine

For all of time…

 

Right now, here today

I eagerly pray that you

Will see how much you

Mean to me….

 

I long for us to be as one

To step in time

As our heartbeats chime

 

I need you today

I need to tomorrow

I need you now

I need you then

I need you all the time

I want you to be mine

 

If you were gone

We won’t be able to write

Our own song

If you were gone

I would shrivel and die

They would find me not

Alive

Grasping your picture

Entwined.

paper lips

Songs singing

 

Sick or sane

                     Kiss me with your paper lips

                          Salty bloody kisses

 

I’m a genius with a headache

And the white coats don’t get it

 

I feel a little sick

Sorry I forgot your name

I know I made a big mistake

Beggin for forgiveness

 

Life’s a little sick

Or a little sane

Yet we suffer the same

 

Sharpen the pencils

Scribble my name

Just don’t forget it

 

Lick the eraser

Dip into ink

Watch me sink

And fade away

Paper man made

 

Sane or sick

 

Singing songs

           Kiss me with your paper lips

                 Salty bloody kisses

 

is this love or someone

who plays the game?

or are you crashing the funerals

of people you never really knew?